“And once the storm is over, you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won’t even be sure, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm, you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm’s all about.” ~ Haruki Murakami
The situations in life that we benefit the most from are the
one that push us out of our comfort zone. The ones that make us fall on our
faces, broken but still breathing and trying our best to stay alive; the ones
that make us stay up at night hoping praying to fall asleep and not wake up,
yet make us hope for a better day with the sun rising. we have all been there,
we have all at some point reached rock bottom. Falling apart and crumbling
under life’s punches, knocked out but never knocked off, falling face first and
yet, finding a way to get back up and keep going.
We have all been through that one big storm. The one that
took away everything we relied on in life, and left us with nothing but the
naked truth of what we are, of who we truly are. That storm that brings out
everything we buried deep inside and prayed to never see, all those feelings we
buried alive hoping that one day they will just go away. But you know what they
say about feelings buried alive: they seep and then come back around as inappropriate
behaviors... So when the storm finally hits, we try our best to go through it by putting one foot in front of the
other, praying for God’s grace and strength everyday. We do so by trying as much as it depends on us to keep our heads high
during the day no matter how hard it is and our knees on the ground during the
night seeking God’s direction and reassurance because that storm is
shaking and tearing everything apart in our life from the ground up, making
everything fall apart in the most brutal and unexpected way.
However, if we take time to be silent in the midst of the storm;
if we take time to truly be with ourselves and sit in the heart of the storm
and sit in the heartbreak it brings along, if we reach that place where we can quiet
our mind in order to ask ourselves the right questions, we might understand the
purpose of the storm. We have a habit of seeing the evil in everything but only
when we learn to look at life and its most unfortunate situations with a
grateful heart, we can find the meaning into and the purpose behind every
situation life throws at us, even the most violent storms. Sometimes it is to
reveal another layer of ourselves we had no idea existed. Sometimes it is to
remove everything so that we can have the opportunity to restart on a
clean slate. And sometimes the things we believe are falling apart are actually
falling into place and even when we think everything is crumbling, perhaps they
truly are. Perhaps they have to crumble for us to build better foundations for
our lives and for us to be able to put the pieces that are crumbling back together
the way they were meant to be, the way we intended them to be or perhaps the
way God intended them to be.
There isn’t necessarily something good about a stormy life
but by training our mind to look for it we always end up finding something to
be grateful for. And if after searching in your mind and your heart you can’t
find anything, just remember that the good thing about hitting rock bottom in
life is that there is only one direction you can go and it’s up. And this doesn’t
give you hope, I don’t know what else will.
-Excerpt from a memoir I will never Write #4
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